how do you learn to love past the pain?; when your heart so terribly broken? you put your all in a relationship and it ends so suddenly. why can’t they understand that you will do anything to have you back in your life?? i cant explain how i feel but i know that i cant just be your friend. im praying every sec, min , and hour of my life trying to learn how to live without love or u at that… tears are my comforter now the bible is my best friend.. being alone is my new pastime.. why cant i get you out my head??? why do i love u so much??? will u try to understand how im feeling? never have i had to struggle with just making it one day without you n mii life but now that your i see what love feels like.. can someone come un- break my heart???
i tried well damn… i’m out.. i’m about to focus fully on what i came here for….. AN EDUCATION…. dnt ask cuz i’m not telling..
sometimes i sit in wonder y do i even try? it’s like the more i try an express the way i really feel the more you just take it for granted. cant you see the that i’ll do anything for u? if anything were to ever happen to u my life would b incomplete!!!!! that’s how much you mean to me yet do u even notice? yeah we’re cool buddy buddy but the way i feel it’s much deeper than that. it’s a struggle seeing you everyday and knowing wow there he goes there’s my could be one and only. and all i get is a simple hi and friendly hug. am i selfish to think the things that i want so badly are within reach but yet i cant have it. is it just me? am i selfish to want you the way i do? if only i knew what you thought about me besides being a friend. or……. is that it??? am i just a friend to u? damn i just got hit by a sack of bricks called reality. will you ever see me the way i see you? could you ever possibly love me the way i love u? yes i said love because what i feel is like no other feeling in the world. to meet someone so prefect, so sweet and honest, so understanding… someone made just for me. wow and i never believed in soul mates or love at first sight, but now i understand how magical it is. but i wonder does it suspose to hurt this bad? i thought when you found the one for u that you find happiness? not have your heart crushed by not recieving a hug. not to lose all state of mind when they go away. but when they return to b filled with joy to only be crushed once again when they begin to act strangely? am i weird for noticing everthing about you? like the way you strech your neck when u cheese smile? or the way you always pretend to trip just to see if someone will laugh? or even when someone’s sad your always there to be that shoulder to cry on? do i suspose to notice those things about u. i got it so bad that i catch myself dreaming about you. wondering wheater i should or i not? kiss u…. cuddle with u….. or just hold hands with you? if you just tell me how you felt then maybe this wouldn’t be so hard…
